can't sleep

well, though only two people will ever read this, i'll just post this to have something to do. right now i can't sleep, mainly b/c i need a job and since i don't have one, i'm left to sleep in late which causes me to go to bed late and it's a horrible cycle. I would like a job, if only just to regulate my sleep! i had a good night tonight. i went to a guy's Bible study, where we kicked off a series of weekly get-togethers. we'll be learning and talking about how to grow closer to God and stay closer to Him. God and i both know that i am in desperate need of some help with that. i, then, went out with some friends and went home. i went to my room and just spent some time talking to God through singing and pouring my heart out to Him. before i go to bed i'll read His Word and finish talking to Him by letting Him talk to me. i need Him so much. i left my "worship service" b/c God was laying on my heart what we should sing for tomorrow night's service. instead of singing, we're going to listen to "Heart of Worship" by Matt Redman. it is something we all need to be rminded of- that it is all about God and not about us. The things we do, they're not just to please ourselves or others, we should be focused on pleasing our Lord, first and foremost. i think i will leave this post as is, goodnight to you all!

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